Dear baby girl- this was one of the most difficult weeks for me since your birth since I went on a business trip and traveled far away from you. I went to Costa Rica to visit coffee farms. While it was beautiful, I missed you dearly. Daddy, you and I skyped the first night I left and you recognized my voice and began to look around for me. It broke my heart that you were confused about where I was and I couldn’t grab you and hold you. We decided not to put you through this anymore so I have not seen your face in 5 days. Your daddy is taking good care of you (though he can’t swaddle you like your mommy can). I’ve heard you’ve been a good girl with an extra large appetite this week. I will attach some of daddy’s comments to me below…

When I get home tomorrow I am going to scoop you up and give you the biggest hug I can. I’m going to grab those little fingers and kiss them and hope to God you haven’t forgotten me … or worse yet, resent me. My greatest fear is that you will feel abandoned and lose trust in me. Please don’t ever lose trust- you and your daddy are my greatest loves. As I have written before, I never knew I could love someone so much and feel the shaken emptiness when you aren’t near. Please give me a smile when you see me tomorrow. With great love, your mommy